The Doctrine of Election

John MacArthur has been preaching lately on Election/Predestination whatever you want to call it. Now, throughout my Christian life I have either steered away from this subject or chosen not to believe in it. I will admit, through scripture there is every reason to believe in Election but my heart struggles. I trust John MacArthur as a very gifted teacher because he brings up and reveals Truth and current issues, as well as having an extremely devout dedication to the Bible and understand it. Accordingly, when he says that I struggle with Election when I know what scripture says he states, "that's is a result of your fallenness, and you want some responsibility in your salvation." 

 Cry out for insight,
      and ask for understanding. - Proverbs 2:3

I really suggest you listen. Its a series: and it's located right here