I started this blog cause...

Hello everyone!

Yes, its been a few weeks - a couple months maybe. idk. Well there is a lot to say and there is nothing to say. I've been busy and quite frankly I think I came to a conclusion that Ineeded a break from blogging. It can be pretty consuming. It can turn into a self-worshiping craze. I found myself checking stats to see how many and when people were viewing my blog. Of course, I do all this for God, but seriously I not dim enough to ignore the fact that I want to be heard, too. And that can be a problem.

I started this blog with the intention of defending the faith. But something weird happened. I have been formally educated, prayerfully guided, and authentically honest with myself and others. As I searched for answers to the harder questions of faith, searched history, and actually looked at the primative church... well we all know the story... I became Catholic. I said I would go wherever God wanted me to - except for the Catholic Church. Unfortunately, when you tell God you wont do something, it happens.

So I found myself writing about things that people really disagreed with. I found myself at odds with my own wife. I found many friends who love the Lord (this I still know) not wanting anything to do with a spiritual conversation with me. I guess I got a taste of something I had to tell everyone about. I found support nearly non-existent. It seemed the moment I mentioned the faith, historical Christianity, or mentioned a rosary - nobody wanted to listen. Yes, it did get me down. I wont hide from the reader that I fought God on this. I played the ignorant card "well all this makes sense, but its just a good argument, right?" or "Its just religion" or "I can just be a satisfied protestant and keep everything from unhinging right before my very eyes, right?" No. I knew after a while, that with the unshakable Truth that God showed me, that I could not hold back any longer.

So I became Catholic. And I love it. I was in the line for the confessional today at noon - in downtown Omaha. I saw a line backed up to the door with people waiting to be heard. Incredible! Six months ago, if I saw this I would have gladly shook it off as a well-convinced bunch of people who didn't properly understand that God is the forgiver of sins. And to that statement, I would have been right. "Only God can forgive sins" is what the people said in reply to Jesus when He forgave and healed the blind man. Pretty arrogant of me to be the arbiter of God. Yes, God forgives the sin, but God also has the authority to choose how He wants that to happen. He chose His son Jesus Christ to do this, and His son chose Apostles to continue in His ministry.  So I observed the line of men and women, young and old, taking time out of their work week - probably unpaid - to properly receive grace through the Sacrament of Reconciliation - to humbly commit to confessing their darkest moments - to saying no to Satan, the father of deception, who wills us to think that we abuse the sacrament and that God will only forgive you one more time. I don't honestly know what is a more beautiful sight: nobody at the confession line because there needs not be, or many coming to be forgiven.

Like I said, I started this blog with the intention of defending the faith, not thine own faith. There is a lot to talk about, too.

So anyways, I hope I'm back more regularly. Please continue to read. Please continue to pray. Please continue to say "yes" to God no matter where His voice leads you.